I hate who I’ve become, and the fact that I hate what I look like.  There are days where I like myself more than others… but that shouldn’t be the case at all.

I don’t know why I have stumbled into this figment of negativity about myself, or where it first started, because I definitely didn’t care what I looked like last year.  But this year I have.

With this in mind, it’s harder to accept who you are, and to let God shine through you, for others to see.  You are saying you don’t like what God has created you to be.   And compliments are even harder to accept as well.

I recently went to a night with a lot of girls where we just talked about the Christian values of beauty, and the love we should have.  Activities and games occurred which also made the night a blast.  One of these activities we did was “warm fuzzies” - writing good comments about the person, whose name is on the sheet.  However, we had to write nice comments about their inner beauty - aka their personality, etc.  Which was a super thought!

I read mine when I got home… but the sad thing was I didn’t believe half of what was written.  I couldn’t see how it was possible.  And with the next day, having a friend in my room, he saw the sheet on the floor and was curious.  I couldn’t let him see,  I mean how could I?  If I myself cannot believe those things about me, I don’t want to let others see, before I accept it myself.

Therefore I have been trying to think of ways to get back to being happy with myself.  People can compliment - but they seem to be reflected lately… they make me feel warm and fuzzy on the inside… but wear out soon after, as I let them slip away.  I need to change this.  I love receiving compliments.  I just wish I knew how to accept them… so I’m concocting some ideas…  let me know if you have any…

1. Writing a book, where I can say one thing I like about myself each day, and having it on the door, so I see it before I leave, everyday!

2. ?

So I’ve spent most of my night (last 5 hours) trying to do one of my art assignments.  It’s the first one out of three I’ve been working on, but it’s only about 5% complete… and they’re all due Monday.  I don’t mind working a lot of hours into the night, especially when I can’t sleep, but when you put so much work into th piece, and then on the last section of one part of the assignment you stuff up, causing the whole piece to be ruined… well that’s just plain frustrating.

Stupid coke can breaking when you’re cutting out the last image

So I’m so unmotivated at the moment.  Haven’t been able to sleep lately, and last night was a repeat.  Went to bed at 4:40 this morning, and probably didn’t fall asleep till 5am, just couldn’t.  Woke up at 9am, to start the day, but I’m just too exhausted to think.  It feels as if it’s gonna be a miserable day… but I am NOT gonna let that happen.  The following will happen today :)  :

• Be happy.
• Quiet time with God!
• Student Life’s Catalyst (Weekly Meeting) breakup
• KV Meetings
• Evangelism - I don’t want to do it atm. But I will. It won’t happen tomoz @ the uni, but it will happen today!
• Art assignment - VSA1021 - do all the cans - *sigh* - i will hopefully upload pics if it looks better than the first can I spent ages on… gotta try and see if I can reinforce that one and therefore salvage it.
• Prepare prayer brekky material for tomoz.
• Find a JP, so I can volunteer at TMI.
• Reply to all the emails about Summer Projects I sent out last night/morning… I got a fair few responses this morning… sadly they’re mostly no’s… but God has a plan right?
• Take a photo of the sunset!  Gotta remember that one :)  Camera to KV Meeting :P
• See a friend, be a friend, and try not to be hurtful, especially to the people I am finding really hard to get along with, or to encourage.  These are usually the one’s who have mental difficulties, due to medical reasons, but it’s always been a weak point for me - makes me uncomfortable… but I have to change that… they should not be treated differently because they’re not seen in the public eye as normal… heck I’m NOT normal!
• TRUST IN GOD!

So my day ended up being a good day as it was :)  So much fun and adventure.

I didn’t end up getting to do evangelism today, but apparently I am to do it tomoz… so something to look forward to.  I just hope my friend comes, cos I don’t have the guts to initiate it myself anymore :(.

I did get the jp stuff done however, so that’s a positive and catalyst (student life’s weekly meeting) was sooooo much fun… we had a photo chase around the uni… lots of mad young people running everywhere… surprisingly security weren’t called :P

Had KV meeting this afternoon. blah. i wish i didn’t go in someways… it was good, but we were talking about how we could improve for next year, and I just couldn’t get my point across… what I was saying, wasn’t being interpreted the way i wanted it to be, and therefore no one else saw the problem…  or maybe i’m just being a control freak again. It ended off with a whole bunch of the guys watching a tv show which wasn’t the problem… the problem was the tv show had immense swearing… and they just found the show hilarious…  I don’t know if they realised how many times the f word was said, but it seemed to be two to three times every sentence and it just didn’t seem to be an appropriate show to be filling one’s body with.

I decided to leave asap, cos I’ve given up saying something, I don’t want to appear too… yeah, and I was sort of hoping to mention it in passing as I left - but too many things on the mind, and not the right occurence of events occurred for me to say, so i just left.  Was tying my shoes outside, when one of the guys, who lives nearby came out.

I have nothing against this guy… but I just needed alone time.  I seem to be needing it a lot from him lately, and it just hurts that him, and everyone else that’s involved in his lifestyle seem to be wanting to talk to me about why I’m not “”“taling”“” to him/being around him, at the same time.  I’d just like a break.  I mean how do you tell a guy who’s confused about his feelings, that you’re not interested, especially if it’s because he can’t get his ideal girl, and so you’re the second choice?  How do you support him and befriend him, without him getting emotionally attached (and wanting more?), without causing him to sink further into depression and return to a binge drinking habit?   I don’t like feeling his problems being my fault, but at the moment, it feels more and more like they are.  Hopefully he doesn’t read this, cos he found another friend’s tubmlr account and therefore knows I exist on here, through my friend, but I just need some answers and some release of  angst.

And I still haven’t finished any of my art assignment (have to start it from scratch again) or prepared for prayer brekky tomoz… it will all have to be done tonight.  I just need sleep, but there’s so much to do.  I’m looking forward to tomorrow though, especially if there’s discipleship with Mrs Inskip :) … best highlight of any day ever…

Anyways I should be off - going to a friend’s house to try and do some art again… I’ll put pics up of tonight’s sunset, catalyst photo chase, and other things, hopefully tonight or tomoz… it will all depend.

When I say… “I am a Christian”

I’m not shouting “I’m clean livin’.”

I’m whispering “I was lost,

Now I’m found and forgiven.”

When I say… “I am a Christian”

I don’t speak of this with pride.

I’m confessing that I stumble

and need Christ to be my guide.

When I say… “I am a Christian”

I’m not trying to be strong.

I’m professing that I’m weak

And need His strength to carry on.

When I say… “I am a Christian”

I’m not bragging of success.

I’m admitting I have failed

And need God to clean my mess.

When I say… “I am a Christian”

I’m not claiming to be perfect,

My flaws are far too visible

But, God believes I am worth it.

When I say… “I am a Christian”

I still feel the sting of pain.

I have my share of heartaches

So I call upon His name.

When I say… “I am a Christian”

I’m not holier than thou,

I’m just a simple sinner

Who received God’s good grace, somehow!

Some guy bought a new refrigerator for his house. To
get rid of his old fridge, he put it in his front yard
and hung a sign on it saying: "Free to good home. You
want it, you take it".

For three days the fridge sat there without even one
person looking twice at it. He eventually decided that
people were too untrusting of this deal. It looked to
good to be true, so he changed the sign to read:

"Fridge for sale $50"



The next day someone stole it.

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While looking at a house, my brother asked the real
estate agent which direction was north because, he
explained, he didn't want the sun waking him up every
morning.

She asked, "Does the sun rise in the north?"

Then my brother explained that the sun rises in the
east, (and has for sometime), she shook her head and
said, "Oh, I don't keep up with that stuff". . . . . .


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I used to work in technical support for a 24/7 call
center. One day I got a call from an individual who
asked what hours the call center was open. I told him,
"The number you dialed is open 24 hours a day, 7 days
a
week." He responded, "Is that

Eastern or Pacific time?"


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My colleague and I were eating our lunch in our
cafeteria, when we overheard one of the administrative
assistants talking about the sunburn she got on her
weekend drive to the shore.

She drove down in a convertible, but "didn't think
she'd get sunburned because the car was moving". . . .
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My sister has a lifesaving tool in her car. It's
designed to cut through a seat belt if she gets
trapped. She keeps it in the
trunk . . . . . . .



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My friends and I were on a beer run and noticed that
the cases were discounted 10%. Since it was a big
party, we bought 2 cases. The cashier multiplied 2
times 10% and gave us a 20% discount . . . . . . .



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I was hanging out with a friend when we saw a woman
with a nose ring attached to an earring by a chain. My
friend said, "Wouldn't the chain rip out every time
she turned her head?"

 explained that a person's nose and ear remain the
same distance
apart no matter which way the head is
turned. . . . . . . . . . .



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I couldn't find my luggage at the airport baggage
area. So I went to the lost luggage office and told
the woman there that my bags never showed up. She
smiled and told me not to worry because she was a
trained professional and I was in good hands.

"Now," she asked me, "has your plane arrived yet? " .
. . . . . . . .


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While waiting at a Pizza Parlor I observed a man
ordering a small pizza to go. He appeared
to be alone
and the cook asked him if he would like it cut into 4
pieces or 6. He thought about it for some time before
responding. "Just cut it into 4 pieces; I don't think
I'm hungry enough to eat 6 . . . . . . . . .

Her hair was up in a pony tail
her favorite dress tied with a bow.

Today was Daddy’s Day at school,
and she couldn’t wait to go.

But her mommy tried to tell her,
that she probably should stay home.
Why the kids might not understand,
if she went to school alone.

But she was not afraid;
she knew just what to say.
What to tell her classmates
of why he wasn’t there today.

But still her mother worried,
for her to face this day alone.
And that was why once again,
she tried to keep her daughter home.

But the little girl went to school
eager to tell them all.
About a dad she never sees
a dad who never calls.

There were daddies along the wall in back,
for everyone to meet.
Children squirming impatiently,
anxious in their seats

One by one the teacher called
a student from the class.
To introduce their daddy,
as seconds slowly passed.

At last the teacher called her name,
every child turned to stare.
Each of them was searching,
a man who wasn¹t there



Where’s her daddy at?”
She heard a boy call out.
She probably doesn’t have one,”
another student dared to shout.

And from somewhere near the back,
she heard a daddy say,
“Looks like another deadbeat dad,
too busy to waste his day.”

The words did not offend her,
>as she smiled up at her Mom.
And looked back at her teacher,

who told her to go on.
And with hands behind her back,
slowly she began to speak.
And out from the mouth of a child,
came words incredibly unique.

“My Daddy couldn’t be here,
 because he lives so far away.
 But I know he wishes he could be,
 since this is such a special day.

 And though you cannot meet him,
 I wanted you to know.
 All about my daddy,
 and how much he loves me so.

He loved to tell me stories
he taught me to ride my bike.
He surprised me with pink roses,
and taught me to fly a kite.

We used to share fudge sundaes,
 and ice cream in a cone.
And though you cannot see him.
I’m not standing here alone.

“Cause my daddy’s always with me,
even though we are apart
I know because he told me,
he’ll forever be in my heart”

With that, her little hand reached up,
and lay across her chest.
Feeling her own heartbeat,
beneath her favourite dress

And from somewhere here in the crowd of dads,
her mother stood in tears.
Proudly watching her daughter,
Who was wise beyond her years.

For she stood up for the love
of a man not in her life.
Doing what was best for her,
doing what was right.

And when she dropped her hand back down,
Staring straight into the crowd.
She finished with a voice so soft,
but its message clear and loud.

I love my daddy very much,
he’s my shining star.

nd if he could, he’d be here,
>but heaven’s just too far

You see he was a policeman
and died just this past year
hen airplanes hit the towers
and taught Americans to fear.

But sometimes when I close my eyes,
it’s like he never went away.”
And then she closed her eyes,
and saw him there that day.


And to her mothers amazement,
he witnessed with surprise.
A room full of daddies and children,
all starting to close their eyes.



Who knows what they saw before them,
who knows what they felt inside.
Perhaps for merely a second,
hey saw him at her side.

“I know you’re with me Daddy,”
to the silence she called out.
And what happened next made believers,
of those once filled with doubt.

Not one in that room could explain it,
for each of their eyes had been closed.
But there on the desk beside her,
was a fragrant long-stemmed pink rose.
And a child was blessed, if only for a moment,
by the love of her shining star.
And given the gift of believing,
that heaven is never too far.

hey say it takes a minute to find a special person,

an hour to appreciate them,

a day to love them,

but then an entire life to forget them.

Before U were thought of or time had begun,
God stuck U in the name of His Son.

And each time U pray, you’ll see it’s true,
You can’t spell out JesUs and not include U.

You’re a pretty big part of His wonderful name,
For U, He was born; that’s why He came.

And His great love for U is the reason He died.
It even takes U to spell crUcified.

Isn’t it thrilling and splendidly grand?
He rose from the dead, with U in His plan.

The stones split away, the gold trUmpet blew,
and this word resUrrection is spelled with a U.

When JesUs left earth at His upward ascension,
He felt there was one thing He just had to mention.

‘Go into the world and tell them it’s true.
That I love them all - Just like I love U.’

So many great people are spelled with a U,
Don’t they have a right to know JesUs too?

It all depends now on what U will do,
He’d like them to know,
But it all starts with U.


Will YOU pass it on?
When Jesus died on the cross he was thinking of U! If you are one of the 7% who will stand up for Him, forward this.
93% of people won’t forward .

This is the best….. The Holy Alphabet… This is Beautiful



Whoever came up with this one must have had some Divine guidance!



Although things are not perfect
Because of trial or pain
Continue in thanksgiving
Do not begin to blame
Even when the times are hard
Fierce winds are bound to blow
God is forever able
Hold on to what you know
Imagine life without His love
J oy would cease to be
Keep thanking Him for all the things
Love imparts to thee
M ove out of “Camp Complaining”
No weapon that is known
On earth can yield the power
Praise can do alone
Quit looking at the future
Redeem the time at hand
Start every day with worship
To “thank” is a command
Until we see Him coming
Victorious in the sky
We’ll run the race with gratitude
X alting God most high
Y es, there’ll be good times and yes some will be bad, but…
Z ion waits in glory…where none are ever sad!


“I AM Too blessed to be stressed!” The shortest distance between a problem and a solution is the distance between your knees and the floor.

The one who kneels to the Lord can stand up to anything. Love and peace be with you forever, Amen.


PS: GOD LOVES YOU…PASS THE WORD ON TO MORE FRIENDS AND ASK THEM TO CONTINUE TELLING OTHERS THAT GOD LOVES THEM TOO. JUST THINK OF HOW MANY PEOPLE THAT COULD BE REACHED OUT TO AND BLESSED WITH THESE WORDS.

This is a good story and is true, please read it all the way through until the end! (After the story, there are some very interesting facts!):

I am a mother of three (ages 14, 12, 3) and have recently completed my college degree.

The last class I had to take was Sociology.

The teacher was absolutely inspiring with the qualities that I wish every human being had been graced with.

Her last project of the term was called, ‘Smile’.

The class was asked to go out and smile at three people and document their reactions.

  

  

I am a very friendly person and always smile at everyone and say hello anyway. So, I thought this would be a piece of cake, 

literally. 

  



Soon after we were assigned the project,

my husband, youngest son, and I went out

to McDonald’s one crisp March morning. 

  



It was just our way of sharing

special playtime with our son. 

  



We were standing in line, waiting to be served,

when all of a sudden everyone around us

began to back away, and then 
  even my husband did. 

  



I did not move an inch… an overwhelming

feeling of panic welled up inside of me  

as I turned to see why they had moved. 

  



As I turned around I smelled a horrible

‘dirty body’ smell, and there standing  

behind me were two poor homeless men. 

  



As I looked down at the short gentleman,

close to me, he was ’smiling’ 

  



His beautiful sky blue eyes were full

of God’s Light as he searched for acceptance. 

  



He said, ’Good day’ as he counted the few coins

he had been clutching. 

  



The second man fumbled with his hands

as he stood behind his friend.

I realised the second man was penniless

and the blue-eyed gentleman was his salvation. 

  



I held my tears as I stood there with them. 

  



The young lady at the counter  

asked him what they wanted. 

  



He said, ‘Coffee is all Miss’  because

that was all they could afford.

(If they wanted to sit in the restaurant and warm up, they had to buy something. He just wanted to be warm). 

  



Then I really felt it - the compulsion was so great

I almost reached out and embraced

the little man with the blue eyes. 



That is when I noticed all eyes

in the restaurant were set on me,

judging my every action. 

  



I smiled and asked the young lady behind the counter to give me two more breakfast meals on a separate tray. 

  



I then walked around the corner to the table

that the men had chosen as a resting spot.

I put the tray on the table and laid my hand

on the blue-eyed gentleman’s cold hand. 

  



He looked up at me, with tears in his eyes,

and said, ‘Thank you.’ 

  



I leaned over, began to pat his hand and said,

‘I did not do this for you. God is here working

through me to give you hope.’ 

  



I started to cry as I walked away to join

my husband and son. When I sat down

my husband smiled at me and said, ‘That is why

God gave you to me, Honey, to give me hope..’ 

  



We held hands for a moment and at that time,

we knew that only because of the Grace that we had been given were we able to give. 

  



We are not church goers, but we are believers. 

  



That day showed me the pure Light of God’s sweet love. 

  



I returned to college, on the last evening of class,

with this story in hand. 

  



I turned in ‘my project’ and the instructor read it. 

  



Then she looked up at me and said, ’Can I share this?’ 

  



I slowly nodded as she got the attention of the class. 

  



She began to read and that is when I knew

that we, as human beings and being part of God, share this need to heal people and to be healed. 

  



In my own way I had touched the people at McDonald’s, my son, the instructor, and every soul that shared the classroom on the last night I spent as a college student. 

  



I graduated with one of the biggest lessons

I would ever learn: 

  



UNCONDITIONAL ACCEPTANCE. 

  



Much love and compassion is sent to

each and every person

who may read this, and learn how to 





LOVE PEOPLE AND USE THINGS - 

NOT LOVE THINGS AND USE PEOPLE. 

  



There is an Angel sent to watch over you. 

  



In order for her to work, you must pass this on to the people you want watched over. 

  



An Angel wrote: 

Many people will walk in and out of your life,

but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart 

  



To handle yourself, use your head.. 

To handle others, use your heart.. 

  

           





God Gives every bird it’s food,

but He does not throw it into its nest. 

  



Send it back, you’ll see why! 



  







A box of gold 

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* 

  



With a secret inside 

  



that has never been  told 

  



*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* 

  



This box is priceless 

  



but as I  see 

  



*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* 

  



The treasure inside is 

  



precious to me 

  



*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* 

  



Today I share this 

  



treasure with thee 

  



*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* 

  



It’s the treasure of 

friendship you’ve 


given me. 

  



*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* 

  



If this comes back to you 

  



then you’ll have a friend 

  



for life