I can really disgust myself and I hate it when I do… but sometimes it’s the only thing that fills you up (or appears to fill you up) and so when that source doesn’t satisfy any more… you have to look for something different, something more filling… It’s a disgusting habit.  I have the choice to say yes or no, and yet I still seem to say yes, because it’s the easier habit… it’s the one I’m used to.